2013-12-29 - 8:21 p.m.
company or solitude
my grandmother's caregiver isn't very good, but my grandmother says she loves her. she doesn't really care for having family in the house - and really, she never did. she always preferred the idea of us.
"my husband and my mother are no longer with us," she says. "but they're waiting for me. they're waiting for me....downstairs." well, yes, i bet they are.
i have the perfect flinty heart for this job.
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reading: an old issue of women's day.
listening to: the omnipresent staccato drone of my sister's read-aloud software.
working on: cooking dinner and cleaning up.
in the garden: nothing but sticks and cold brown mud.